Wednesday, February 24, 2010

"Don't should on yourself"

the innocent victims


I shouldn't have taken the day's stress and flung it out across the innocent faces of my children as I hollered them into bed tonight.  I shouldn't have let the gloomy weather trap me firmly inside the bell jar.  I shouldn't have gone to that pilates class that was so boring and left me more tired than not.  I should have remembered Seth's art class.  I should have kissed Dr. Gooch harder before he left for work.  I should get a job to pull my weight.  I shouldn't have written that belligerent letter to February because he's biting back.  I should have folded the cancerous laundry growing in the other room during the pilates class.  I should have slowed down.  I should have ignored the pondering for today and focused on the people.  I should've--before this Wednesday turned slippery sour.

Thank goodness for Thursday (and a lot of other things that smooth rough days).

15 comments:

madsta said...

i hope tomorrow is a better day for you! i've had a bit of a nightmare of a day myself but i'm just about to crawl into bed so all is well! (isnt avery big now?!)

Crystalyn said...

sounds like it will be easy to have a better day tomorrow. i'm jealous your littles are already in bed. and i just found myself thinking (before reading your post) that i SHOULD have exercised in one form or another instead of eating that chocolate. the remedy will have to be going to bed early in order to be ready to face the day tomorrow. hope it's a better one for you! xo.

sara b said...

I love that term, "Don't should on yourself!"

We all do it. And for good reason. We all make mistakes.

I've had plenty sour days.
I like knowing I'm in good company.

Here's to Thursday!

Jen said...

Oh how I know this feeling! I had this type of day yesterday so today was spent playing outside all day. Nothing was accomplished but at least we are all smiling!

Heather E. said...

ugh! i had this exact day. minus 2 kids and pilates, but the weather took me down with it. thanks for keeping it real.

Jill said...

You are pulling your weight...you're a mother of four. Hardest job on earth, bar none.

olivia said...

shouldda, couldda, wouldda—a cycle that keeps us down, but as natural a thought process as any.

i like thursdays better anyway. and i like march better. only 3 days left til then!

Ann said...

I should've called my sister just to say hey and love you! Hope today is better!

Michelle said...

Sounds like a normal day. If I accomplish all the shoulds that would be abnormal. The fact that you had that lovely table setting and dinner this week is an accomplishment!

Ann said...

Again, love your honesty. At least you/we still recognize when we should've been otherwise and hopefully do our best to repair. I think my own mother reached a point raising us where self-evaluation had no place in her busy life, so no sorries, no better tomorrows. That's when it hurts. I hope I never get there. Thank goodness children are so forgiving.

Alyssa said...

Connor tells me not to put my expectations so high some days!

Rebekah V. said...

I have been having the "pull my weight" feelings a lot lately. In fact it seems like I have been having a lot of wednesdays. Did you know that at least one good thing came from yours? I didn't feel so alone in mine.

Rebekah V. said...

by "pull my weight" feelings I mean I should get a job feelings because I am a drag on this little economic system. but I actually don't know if it is really about money. My husband has an interesting theory about how having multiple bases of identity bolsters self image and confidence. I think when I am feeling the most frustrated with my efforts at home is when I always start looking up grad programs online. The money would be nice too.

amyfm said...

thank goodness for new days and new perspectives.

this photo warms my heart.

B said...

Hi,

Just found your blog; love it...
your honesty, your writing and your photos. I have many 'Wednesdays', but thankfully just as many 'Thursdays' :O)

B x