Baby Avery reached four months on the 5th. This is a momentous occasion for the whole family. At four months I let my baby babes take the first step toward independence: "self soothing". No more midnight rendezvous for me and her. We moved her pack 'n play from the closet in our room to the guest room. I put her down with her brother and sisters around 6-ish then we have one more "meal" before I turn in for the night.
So, last night she hollered and hollered. I'm not sure how long. Obviously we both fell back asleep because that's how I found her this morning: soundly, sweetly sleeping. While I unraveled her blanket from her warm little body I breathed an apology for abandoning her in the night. She woke and gave me a sideways smile. We're good. And she is learning a life long skill that some adults never learn.
This is bittersweet. I love every second of my time with this little gal. One less midnight nursing tonight means a ride on the school bus tomorrow--so to speak.