Sunday, September 09, 2007

Believing on a Solo Sabbath


Picture procured this morning with peppermint candy bribes.

I told Craig, I'm a bad Mormon.

He laughed and asked, "Why are you a bad Mormon?"

"I don't want to go to three hours of meetings today with three kids by myself".

He laughed.

Then, we did it and the worst part was afterwards getting in the 180-degree van and driving home all of us red-cheeked and sweaty.

Sister L. in the pew behind us entertained Hazel and Lucy alternately, Seth was saintly through sacrament meeting and when the woman stood up to close with a prayer I watched Seth instinctively fold his arms. Something seemed to be sinking in that day.

Hazel was a bug, so wiggly at this age. Impossible to entertain with anything for more than ten seconds.

The speaker told me (the collective congregation) what a good mom I was for coming and struggling with the children. That it was good for them. I believed her and choked down a "feeling-sorry-for-me" lump.

I also learned from a wise man that education, or the pursuit of, is a form of worship. I believed him.

After, we relaxed at home with ice-cold root beer and cookies.

Now, one in bed already, nap-deprived and two in the bath.

Not so bad. I believe I may be a "not-so-bad" Mormon after all.

17 comments:

rebecca said...

What a great photo... did you take that of yourselves as you readied for the 3 hours today?
I agree - education is worship, you are a good mom for not only today but for most of your days, root beer and cookies should always follow a too-hot car ride, and you are "not-so-bad". Indeed. And maybe, just maybe, you are fantastic.

Jenny said...

Any mom who can fight their way through church alone receives extra honors....especially since you have three under the age of 4!

I would have to consider me as a bad mormon because each Sunday I wake up I feel like I have to "make" myself go. I have an incredibly bad attitudes most Sundays. You are an amazing mother...never think less than that Ms. Jordan :)

Elizabeth said...

I agree, you are fantastic!

Tip Junkie said...

I LOVE that picture! That is seriously frame worthy. I've been feeling the mormon-guilt myself. My baby just turned 18 months old and had his first day in nursery. Today was the first Sunday in months that I wanted to go to church. We all struggle with the 3 hour block during nap time. Hang in there.

Amy said...

You are GORGEOUS in that photo! And, oh my...I can only imagine how long my "I'm a Bad Mormon" post would end up being. And I don't even ever have to Sabbath solo. I just never imagined church would be so difficult at this stage!

Tasha said...

That color of lipstick looks so good on you! I could never pull off a)that color or b) church with three-solo. You are not bad at anything! I think when kids are little it is really just an exercise in obedience, I know I don't gain anything spiritually when I am chasing a toddler in the hallway, but we go, we obey. Time and a season, this is not the time or season for me to have a spiritual experience at church...

Rebecca said...

Yes, indeed. You believe, that is all that counts!
MOM

Michelle said...

What a great photo of you and your kids! Sometimes I want to feel sorry for myself when going at it alone and it is a sacrifice- I'm reminded of this each Sunday as we leave early to church and our wonderful friends that have kids too stay at home. It is a sacrifice well worth it in many ways not just spiritual but habits that we make to be somewhere, dress a certain way, behave a certain way for the purpose of worshiping God. Life lessons that are definitely the pursuit of education.

Julia said...

I love the photo.

If you think you are a bad Mormon-- than I am the worst Mormon. At least you have the excuse of having children. I sit quietly by myself, and I absolutely dread going to church alone. Did I mention that I sit by myself...

Jordan said...

It is funny and ironic, Julia, that your "dread" would be for me a little bit of heaven! (sitting quietly alone) (:

Although, I'm sure after awhile it would get old.

ingrid said...

You have FANTASTIC eyebrows! What's your secret?

michelle said...

Oh my, that family photo is amazing! Definitely one to frame. And so is your smile -- wow. (Jealous.)

I'm so glad you had a good day at church. I can totally relate to the dread of trying to entertain young children while striving to find something uplifting for yourself. Those days keep you going!

amy m said...

I've definitely been there before, trying to keep all three quiet. I've often said that church is not for the young, but than I wised up. It us for them just as much as it is for us. It teaches them reverence that we may not be able to do in our home. Does it teach us patience, I wonder? The calm will come...trust me.

Heidi said...

So cute! I dislike those "solo" Sundays very much (which happen much too often then not). But, on those days, there always seems to be an extra set of helping hands.

Crystalyn said...

you are brave! i love that you wrote about the "feeling-sorry-for-me" lump. i get that lump at times.

congrats on making it. adorable picture.

Jordan said...

Ingrid: wax and pluck! My eyebrows get more maintenence than my hair (unfortunately that shows, too--noticed the pulled back do for church!)

Jill said...

Clearly you're a brilliant Mormon because you actually went and you did so looking fabulous!