Monday, April 09, 2007

"I don't have time to sleep" and other ruminations


Seth certainly felt the urgency of the holiday as he burst out of his bedroom door for the third time proclaiming the above sentence. I assured him he had plenty of time to sleep and that, in fact, the Easter Bunny wouldn't come until he was asleep. This surprisingly did the trick. The next morning Seth endured over an hour of compulsory cuddling in Mom and Dad's bed until Lucy woke up. Then we started the morning off with an egg hunt around the house. Then, chocolate and buttermilk pancakes for breakfast, new swing installation on the back porch, a Sunday rush, a few photos snapped of us in our snazzies and off to church.

They played "The Lamb of God" movie in Sunday school. Since my mission this film leaves me all welled up and overwhelmed with gratitude. It truly made my Easter Sunday. Through the infantile love of my children and their eagerness to forgive I have tasted a bit of what it means to be granted a fresh start (each morning) and have "all things" renewed (kisses and tender exchanges after the storms of our toddling days). Blessed. It is the word for this "back of the mind" knowledge that my littles are actually little human buds bursting with divine potential. How is it that I am entrusted with their care? A question I will spend all my days answering, I am sure.

21 comments:

Jeni said...

My girlfriend had her daughter in the exact same dress as Lucy and Hazel...such a cute dress! Such cute chil'rens!

Jenny said...

Love the new swing installation. And we were big children's place supporters this year...same socks and all. Your kiddos look darling.

p.s. Why don't I remember you being a return missionary. Oh, the things you learn. Happy belated Easter!

Elizabeth said...

I love the naked swinging. How cute.
We had buttermilk pancakes yesterday also. Yum.

amy m said...
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amy m said...

I spend my days wondering the same thing. How is it possible that I am here to teach them when I feel all they do is teach me. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever get it. I too am grateful for fresh starts and that the gift of the atonement allows us that.

Love the naked swinging. Too funny.

Amy said...

Please tell me your "snazzies" included a certain black polka dotted number. The swing picture is priceless...as are teh words "little human buds bursting with divine potential." Those moments and ponderings leave me, too, in awe.

Crystalyn said...

i ask myself the same question many, many times. thankfully we have a fresh start each day.

love your pics. especially the swings.

where did you serve your mission?

Crystalyn said...

oh, and i forgot...love that seth didn't have time to sleep. i would have giggled myself to sleep over that one.

Jordan said...

Crystalyn--I served in Rostov, Russia.

Natasha said...

Adorable kids!

Tasha said...

J-I wonder the same thing often. I try to take it as evidence of a loving Father's trust in me, knowledge of my potential, even if I don't feel it at the time.

I love the pictures!

Amy W. said...

Adore the swing pic--looks like my children much of the day! I echo your's and everone else's comments. What a responsibility we have been entrusted with. At times it is overwhelming.

Sara said...

Jordan,
Your kiddos are beautiful as always! Love the swinging picture. . . that one is sure to go down in history! Glad you had a wonderful Easter! And glad you too feel overwhelmed by the responsibility of parenting. . .I love knowing I am in good company!

sista # 2 said...

Cute. Cute. Cute!!
I was waiting in the southwest terminal -at the gate- today, my nieces were returning to SLC. I saw the Chessmans in line too. We caught up a bit (same neighborhood as my parents way back when). They were headed there to see your newly returned missionary sister! Where did she serve? Cool to learn you did too. They are so nice.
I told them we met in the blogging world & had lunch! They got a kick out of this ;) Does sound funny.
-ciao, Janae

Jordan said...

Janae, so glad you chatted with the Cheesmans! My sister was in Quito, Ecuador, I was in Russia. I thought about making the drive by my "adult" lonesome with three kids crammed in our camry--and then i came to my senses. I am sad to be missing it. I haven't even seen her yet!!!

Kelly said...

I don't have time to sleep either, but some things you really do need to make a moment for.

I loved the outfits, swings and sentiments. Sometimes it hits me so squarely that these are not so much MY children as Heavenly Father's. It's incredibly humbling. And so, I, too, am grateful for forgiveness and fresh starts!

ShawnaB. said...

I love this post, Jordan - pictures and all. It looks like a very happy Easter indeed. Please, please save Lucu and Hazel for my boys! I'll try to raise them to be good, upstanding gentlemen and I promise to be a perfectly NON over-bearing mother-in-law! Oh boy, I probaly shouldn't promise that ... anyway, I'm all about the Borg?amngum hook-up!

Khalil Gibran has the writtent he most beautiful passage about our children not being our own, but rather they are arrows of light that we send out into the world. They have their own destiny, their own purpose. We just get to help them take flight. I love that idea ... arrows of light.

Jill said...

Wow, swinging naked, that's a new one!

annalisa said...

Doesn't the easy nudity of children make you smile? I was thinking this yesterday as Alexis was dancing around naked (something my little modest girl rarely does) full of giggles.
I am amazed when I consider the trust I have been given as a mother. It makes me love her a little more and be a little less curt and impatient.

Chanel said...

What a great photo! I have one little bum that would never wear clothes if we let her. So we have "panties always on"-rule at our house...and at church and at friends houses. We need to remind her of this rule a lot.
What a great patio and swing!

michelle said...

I don't have time to sleep. That sounds like the refrain of my children, although they have never articulated it! Why can't children embrace the beauty that is restorative sleep? The naked swinging is adorable.